Guilt is a heavy weight upon the heart.

Sometimes you try to justify the things you've done;

Finding loop holes to try things you know you shouldnt

But in the end, you ask yourself: was it worth it?

You sometimes had moments of clarity

Allowing you to see the bigger picture

But you denied their truths, and said, not yet.

Soon but not yet. Living in the past is useless

Worrying constantly about the future’s worthless

Every decision that you make affects the future

Just as much as it is influenced by the past.

I realize now that Thoreau was right, as he wrote in Walden-

“I have been anxious to improve the nick of time,

and notch it on my stick too; to stand on the meeting of two eternities,

the past and future, which is precisely the present moment; to toe that line.”

The time is always now.

I have written this in the past

As you, now, are reading it in the present.

But for me, the time is now, as

I write this in the present.

If you're having second guesses about

certain details in your life

Don't wait until it is too late

To try to fix your mistake.

As the voices in my head started as shouts of reprimand,

The longer I ignored them, the quieter they became, until

Final whispers wandered away without care.