glass walls surround my thoughts

all jumbled up in my head

waiting to burst out

I’m only alive until I’m dead

I just need to hold it in

a little bit longer

I don’t care if I lose or win

I just need to be a bit stronger

but everyday it gets harder

to keep it all inside

plaster on a smile, I’m no martyr

I’ve lied and I’ve cried

and nobody knows

I overthink a lot

insecure about my mouth, my nose

comparing myself to robots

stupid filters, stupid boys

dumb tests at stupid school

scream too hard, I lose my voice

just play it cool

my head spinning round

thinking about too much too often

too many noises, too much sound

I’m just so done

I don’t even know what I’m crying about

I need to take a breath

but instead I bite my tongue, shut my mouth

of course living’s better than death

but it doesn’t feel like living anymore

just surviving

overthinking it all, an internal war

but on the outside, well-kept and smiling

I don’t know what to think

I don’t even want to

life’s gone in a blink

I must figure out what to do

to stop going so crazy

take a step back and unwind

stop being so lazy

and untangle the twisted mirrors of my mind