I wish I had never let go.

I lashed out in anger

And severed a tie

That cannot be healed again.

I told you to leave

To pack up your things

And you waited for me to turn around

To change my mind and let you back in

To take you in my arms

But I never did.

Instead I let go.

Can I ever undo this?

My baby, how could I cast you out?

I took your house from you,

Your security, your safety

And for what?

Because you confided in me.

Because you trusted me.

Because you confused me for someone

Who would care.

Who would help.

Maybe I confused myself for something else

On that day.

A monster, a cold figure

A disappointed mother

Who has no idea

What she is doing to her daughter.

My baby, I’m sorry.

I can’t fix this.

I wish I had never let go.