TW mental health

(Im okay)

I just woke up and I’m feeling numb,

To my own thoughts I wont succumb.

My mind it races all the time,

The reason why? That I cant define.

I need to distract myself and fast,

Play some music and make it last.

Because things cant always feel like this,

But thats a thought I just dismiss…

Perhaps I need some time apart,

Self Isolation. Thats a start.

Because being alone seems effortless,

When compared to facing this emptyness,

That sinks into my chest.

Im always complaining, it’s mentally draining

A growing weakness I detest.

It’s easier to pretend Im okay,

Than to break and beg for you to stay.

Its easier to pretend Im strong,

Because I cannot explain whats wrong,

I cant bare this feeling, I dont belong…

I wear self sabotage like camouflage,

To protect me from unseen threats.

From my job to all my relationships,

I am left with many regrets.

But perhaps theres still a chance for me,

If I could just set my mind free.

Maybe call and talk to a friend,

Remind myself this darkness ends.

But instead I will just go to bed,

Because some things are best left unsaid…