TW mental health (Im okay) I just woke up and I’m feeling numb, To my own thoughts I wont succumb. My mind it races all the time, The reason why? That I cant define. I need to distract myself and fast, Play some music and make it last. Because things cant always feel like this, But thats a thought I just dismiss… Perhaps I need some time apart, Self Isolation. Thats a start. Because being alone seems effortless, When compared to facing this emptyness, That sinks into my chest. Im always complaining, it’s mentally draining A growing weakness I detest. It’s easier to pretend Im okay, Than to break and beg for you to stay. Its easier to pretend Im strong, Because I cannot explain whats wrong, I cant bare this feeling, I dont belong… I wear self sabotage like camouflage, To protect me from unseen threats. From my job to all my relationships, I am left with many regrets. But perhaps theres still a chance for me, If I could just set my mind free. Maybe call and talk to a friend, Remind myself this darkness ends. But instead I will just go to bed, Because some things are best left unsaid…