TW mental health

(Im okay)

I just woke up and I’m feeling numb,

To my own thoughts I wont succumb.

My mind it races all the time,

The reason why? That I cant define.

I need to distract myself and fast,

Play some music and make it last.

Because things cant always feel like this,

But thats a thought I just dismiss…

Perhaps I need some time apart,

Self Isolation. Thats a start.

Becaus...

Its been a long time

I still think about you dear

When I feel I’m lost

That is when I hold you near

Still close to my beating heart

Im sorry my love

To have left you on your own

You must love again

One day when the heartache stops

Find home in anothers heart...

My darling lover,

How I wish to hold you close.

Remind me again,

Why is it that you lay so,

So far away with me here.

My doting lover,

How I do care for you so.

But this summer heat,

Surely it has me beat and

Your form emits more indeed!...

I’m staring at my phone again,

It seems thats all I do.

I’m reading our old messages,

And thinking about you.

Im not sure why I do this still,

All it does is bring me pain.

I’m sick of sitting and missing you,

But I simply cant refrain…

Nostalgia always brings me back,

Though I try to fight it off.

I know that if you saw me now,

It’d only make you scoff.

I find myself typing once more,

But delet...

Watching…Watching…

Watching me…

That is why I cannot leave.

Every time I try to sleep,

From the shadows creatures creep.

Empty eyes and gaping maws,

Outstretched fingers filled with claws.

And though I try to call for help,

No one sees them but myself.

They tell me it’s all in my head,

I cant escape this awful dread.

The light stays on until sunrise,

Need to escape from their eyes.

All around me,...

I awaken from my bed,

Melodic singing in my head.

“Darling wont you come with me,

Ill make you feel truly free.”

Sickening shivers down my spine,

Tell myself that I’ll be fine.

“Darling I know that you can hear,

There is no need for you to fear.”

And despite my reluctant heart,

I feel the need to play the part.

Every word it draws me closer,

To my anonymous composer.

His voice growing louder still...

Love is the lie that keeps us alive,

When this really just needs to die.

Lack the self respect to walk away from this,

But it’s no ones fault but mine.

And though I know it in my heart,

Im afraid of letting go.

It seems I’d rather grip the rope,

And bare the scars alone.

Because letting go means moving on,

But I need you in my life.

Or perhaps thats just another lie,

That lingers in my mind.

We ca...

Dreary skies and pouring rain,

Fog rolls in an open plane.

An old worn bench sat all alone,

Next to a grave carved out from stone.

Dead flowers laid upon the ground,

The silence here is so profound.

Ivy crawls across her grave,

Name so beautifully engraved.

Despite this solemn scenery,

It just seems serene to me;

When I think of the two of us....

I cant control the moon, sun, or stars;

But please tell me why this love cant be ours.

When the sun rises at the break of dawn,

Why cant I enjoy its warmth from your arms?

Golden rays shine through our window shades,

It lights your smile in this picturesque way.

Although I know that I shouldnt ask for more,

Its when the moon rises,

Indigo taking over the sky,

That the stars sparkle,

And they rem...

Enchanting flower, glowing bright.

Reaching closer, fingers light.

Graze the petals, throat feels tight.

A burning starts to grow inside,

Spreading, crawling, across my skin.

My flesh it stretches, creating anew.

Twisting, bending, and breaking too

Fingers elongate, Claws push through

The air has suddenly grown thin.

What is this? I cant begin.

Gasping, choking, crying out.

Consumed by something u...