I could look into your eyes for hours

Study the lack of feeling in them like I’ll be tested

And I’ll fail

Your smile lights up a room

Will the flames or the smoke take me first?

Will it be your cold silence or fiery snarl that does me in?

Although I’ve yet to meet either

The dream of both will keep me warm through the winter

I grasp every piece of you you have given me

Hold them until they break

Until you are unrecognizable in my mind’s eye

And if someday you notice me

All my studying

All my suffocating

All my dreaming

All my grasping

I hope I live up to the version of me that is in your head

Or rather, that there is one at all