I see myself in you. 

Coffee-stained coasters yank me from cables of ego. Cords numb my legs as they tangle themselves between my spirit and I find myself tainted with green.

I see myself in you.

Up here, I control the heights.

A great wave will boom on your shore until you notice my damage,

I will make sure of it. 

I chase Discord peacefully,

they never notice.

I want them to.

I want them to see me,

A pillar in the sky.

I want to overwhelm.

I want to harm and be harmed.

I want consequences to tower over everything. 

I want to overlook and follow all your wrongdoings,

I see myself in you. 

I want to do what you do.

A careless and reckless force that I can never be. 

My throat clenches,

I want to be.

I want to be seen.

I want to ruin and be ruined,

I want to climb and fall

and climb and fall

and climb and fall

and climb until the entire world knows I’m tired.

I’m tired of being a strong, gentle, understanding, and empathetic guardian.

I belong on stilts.

Stilts so heavy, that they pierce the Earth’s crust. Stilts so large, that no one can escape.

I see myself on stilts. 

I see myself in you.

You who are triggered enough to be violent. 

You are loud enough to force everyone to hear you.

You…

You are everything I want to be.