Home
Broken. Pain.
Home. Scared. Alone.
Struggle for money. Hurt.
Home. Lonely amongst family. Fists.
Bills. No heating. Too little food.
Home. Kicks. Punches. Tears. No help. Fear.
Out.
Friends. Friends.
Out. Talking. Laughing.
Burgers, chips, beer, football.
Out. A good time. Together.
Banter, jokes, teasing. Not for real.
Out. Our time. Love. Together, now, forever:...
I look back. It’s cold day. I’m hiding in the library. He walks in, there’s a little hello between us before he goes to check in his books and search out a new one. He sits opposite me.
He doesn’t love me. Yet.
I don’t love him. Yet.
It’s cosy, he brought me coffee. We read together for around an hour, occasionally the other asking what things mean or sharing bits we like.
His hand brushed aga...
“You. I’ve never seen you fight. You’re always here, lifting weights no-else could with everything but you’re there with one hand looking bored.”
“I don’t spar with strangers. I don’t want to hurt anyone.” The white haired man looks at him, his snake like eyes narrowing as he focusses.
“Fine. What about enemies?”
“I kill them.”
“Good. You stand around with your snake like eyes staring daggers at ...
I curl up in that little space, trying to keep my breathing quiet. My heart is going so fast I shake with it. Surely everyone can hear it? I watch the feet shuffling around my room. She walks away.
There is a monster under my bed, I think. One that makes me invisible even in the brightest colours and silent even if I scream my loudest.
It muffles the outside world to me and blinds it too. I thin...
I have many scars on my body,
Tracing patterns and labels on me,
But none of them marked my soul,
None of them tore into my heart.
None till now. I didn’t even realise,
Didn’t know I’d been cut at all
As another’s blood pored over me.
I held him in my lap and sobbed,
Not knowing it was both of our blood,
And my tears, mingling, blending....
“You’ve caused me so much pain, yet I keep coming back for more. My love for you, based off lies as it is, blinds me to my pain.”
“You- Lies! Selfish brat.” She spits.
“No. Truth. You lie. Talk with me. Honestly. I’m an adult. I want to keep you in my life. Talk with me.”
“What about? You speak of your pain like you have not hurt me! For weeks you said nothing, no messages, no calls, no visits. F...
For once I see my home and all those around it, and there is no dead ends.
I sweep down above old man Toms house and nock the chimney from his roof, then soar high into the sky, blocking out his fiery cry.
I sweep above the Church and look down at the bell, even from here, which grave is which I can tell.
I flew to the sky, I flew beyond, I flew fast past my school, drifted over the lake and cr...
