Life Without You

Life without you isn't the same. When you left you took a part of me I could never get back. I was never good at good byes & yet there I was trying to hold my tears & grasp the fact that you were gone. It was almost 5 in the morning when I woke up to my mother screaming " please no, please don't tell me she's not waking up". Without a second thought I jumped out of bed to see what was all the yelling about. I come to find you, my grandmother, the one who raised me is not waking up from her sleep. How could this be? I had just had a dream about this & here it is surreal. I grabbed my clothes, got my daughter dressed & took a cab to my grandparents house just to walk in & see her just laying there. The tears kept running, you weren't talking, skin so cold & I felt like I was grasping for air. You had 6 daughters & I was one out of 59 grandchildren you had & out of all you decided to take responsibility for me & my older brother. Why us? I will never know. You knew exactly when something was wrong with me, you never made me feel like I wasn't loved. You made me feel like anything was possible. The day you past is the day you took my soul with you. Here we are 5 years later without you & the pain still feels like if it were just yesterday I got to see your face. People say time heals all wounds, i say you just learn how to cop but the pain never really goes away. Rest In Peace queen.