I hate growing up because I missed the hold me that liked the girl in the mirror.

I hate growing up because it’s hard.

Life is hard.

It takes over.

I hate growing up because I was happier before I knew what depression even was

I hate growing up because I want to live in the past

I hate growing up because I’m scared of the future,

but mostly I hate growing up because I had always pictured us doing it together and all my life.

I had never thought you would leave.

I hate growing up because I understood what it meant to lose you.

I hate it because through my tears I had to watch people warn you.

I had to watch my family break.

I hate growing up because I can’t be in a world without you.

I hate going up because I don’t live in fairytales anymore and said I have to live and in reality where you are gone

I hate growing up because I have to act like nothing ever happened like you didn’t die

like I didn’t watch my cousin go 6 feet in the ground.

I hate growing up because I feel guilty doing it without you.

I hate growing up because I don’t wanna grow up without you