I hate growing up because I missed the hold me that liked the girl in the mirror. I hate growing up because it’s hard. Life is hard. It takes over. I hate growing up because I was happier before I knew what depression even was I hate growing up because I want to live in the past I hate growing up because I’m scared of the future, but mostly I hate growing up because I had always pictured us doing it together and all my life. I had never thought you would leave. I hate growing up because I understood what it meant to lose you. I hate it because through my tears I had to watch people warn you. I had to watch my family break. I hate growing up because I can’t be in a world without you. I hate going up because I don’t live in fairytales anymore and said I have to live and in reality where you are gone I hate growing up because I have to act like nothing ever happened like you didn’t die like I didn’t watch my cousin go 6 feet in the ground. I hate growing up because I feel guilty doing it without you. I hate growing up because I don’t wanna grow up without you