You’d think death would be late for lessons,

But it seems to be the perfect time,

For the living,

And the left behind.

It runs in my head on a constant loop,

All the things I should have said and done.

I cannot forgive myself,

And I cannot move on.

Maybe one day when I die,

I’ll finally be back by your side,

Just know each time I think of you,

I can’t help but to cry.

I knew better,

I was selfish,

I pray hard for forgiveness,

But I don’t hold my breath.

Wish it’d ended differently,

Would trade my life for yours with no second thought,

I Would fight your war for you,

I promise you we would be winning.

But I can’t go back,

I can’t change a damned thing,

Hindsight may be 20/20,

But at the time I couldn’t see.

I thought you’d be here forever,

But death has to teach its lessons,

And I fell for that because it brought me peace.

But in the end you still slipped away from me.