Hope is the bridge between despair and joy. Hope allows a lot,

But it also derails

And as it unravels,

The joy begins to rot

And you’re back to despair

But it can’t be repaired

Life isn’t fair

And maybe God doesn’t care.

Don’t give me hope and then take it away,

Do not get up and leave

when you’ve told me you’d stay.

I can’t take any more pain,

I’m sorry to complain,

But I cannot breathe

When I’...

Beauty is rarely black and white.

Beauty can be seen even in the absence of sight.

Most people and things are beautiful,

If they put forth their heart and soul.

With more love,

We could rise above,

And see the truth,

And call a truce.

One person’s trash is another’s treasure,

And I will just want you for more than forever,

You’re the definition of goals,

You always sparkle but you’re better than...

I’ve created a monster,

And now I can’t stop her,

I shouldn’t have fought her,

I’d created the monster.

I just let her abuse me,

And completely fucking use me,

I thought she loved me truly,

Never thought she’d undo me.

Family’s not supposed to leave you,

Even if they don’t need you,

And they shouldn’t be cruel,

They should know what to do.

I never had a sister,

Until I met her.

But then 18 year...

I’ve been on a journey

Searching for peace.

I’ve had a ton of plastic surgery,

But I still look like a beast.

It’s been a rough road,

Getting here,

Deserting fear,

And learning to let go and embrace being alone.

I know I have more to discover,

Baggage to unpack,

Tough conversations made even tougher,

By panic attacks.

I don’t claim this life as mine,

But I’d love it to be,

But there is no amoun...

I don’t mean to make a threat,

But so be it if my only way out is death.

You may see Los Angeles as a pipe dream,

But it’s the only place for me.

And so much more healthy.

I’ve never known how peace would feel,

Or even known if it was real,

Until I woke up in LA

And didn’t want to die that day.

I have never felt at home,

Until when I went to WeHo,

I know I could do so much more,

If living wasn’t s...

Bitch I trusted you,

I never thought twice,

Stuck with you when you weren’t nice,

Or even right,

So what’d you go and do?

Ghost me without a care,

Glad you got me out of your hair?

The least you could’ve been was fair.

It’s selfish and sick

Can’t forget what you did,

Suck my dick, sis.

I gave up so much so you would never hurt,

And you threw me away like I’m trash.

I couldn’t even guess what I d...

Deep breaths take up far more space than silence

Deep wounds that don’t heal lead to violence.

A war on drugs is never gonna win,

So you’d best mind your business as I get well again.

Deep sleep is out of reach,

Deep scars inside and out,

Deep depression that sets in

Deep in the ground is where it ends.

Deep pain leads to snapping,

Deep conversations must be happening.

Deep waves pull me under,

...

My blood runs cold,

It must be spilled,

I shiver at the thought

But the shock wears off a bit and I feel my brain go hot.

I know this is a slippery path,

I know that it is dirty.

The white flakes start to stick,

As they wait to turn to water.

Each flake is just so unique,

But equally essential.

If I can get another look as dawn breaks through,

And feel the fresh winter air,

If would fuel my empty ...

Wandering through the streets,

I know I should be scared,

I’m surrounded by freaks,

And I love it that way.

It may be late and dark out here,

But all I feel is calm,

I walk around with zero fear,

This MUST be my home.

I could breathe,

Finally,

And it broke me to have to leave

Paradise.

When I go back,

I’ll feel so good again,

I’ve never been so sure of something as of that,

Living the dream.

W...

I love you more

Than if I’d birthed you myself,

You can do whatever,

You’re too perfect for hell.

I don’t care what you look like

Any more than your gender,

I just want you to be happy,

Not just a pretender.

I’d take any pain for you,

I’d jump in front of bullets,

There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do,

If it meant you’d be ok.

You’re so smart,

You are so mature.

I can’t believe it’s being years we...