*Quotes and song lyrics in this poem. Anything in quotation marks is not mine!*

“I was quiet, but I was not blind.”

I kept convincing myself you were kind,

but you “got me feeling like it hurts to think.”

Why did I never connect the link?

“I’m terrified to be alone”

and “you pretend you don’t know me

like we never met.”

I’m just accident-prone,

making friendships you can bet

will fail harder than someone

who didn’t study.

You tell me I’m lucky,

but you were also a person

I asked not to go.

“Wait. Don’t leave me.”

“Nothing you can say will

make you worthy of an apology.”

That was your reply.

I “tell them how I feel,

but they remain the same.”

I haven’t met a person

I could tell this to.

“All I ever wanted

was somebody to hear me.”

“Was my all not enough?”

“Was it too much to plead?”

“We’ve been through some things.”

That’s my excuse.

It always has been.

For once, can my loyalty

fail and let you go?

“What happened to me?”

“I started to care.”

This is a pain only a friend

can cause,

and only a friend

can heal.

“Oh, it hurts so hard

for a million different reasons.”

“I can only count the number

of our friendship’s seasons

on a single hand.”

That goes to show

how loyal we both were.

After all this,

“let me guess,

you want to stay friends?”