I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to find parking once I got here. As usual, I was worried about the wrong thing; I forgot to bring a jacket. Just like in life, I got distracted by something that didn’t even happen yet as opposed taking care of an immediate problem. Perhaps, it is a hyperbole to say that being cold is a problem; but I am absolutely shivering like a neglected dog under a collapsing porch during the coldest night in the winter.

I’m not exactly sure why I come here so often but I definitely know why I’m here now. The first time I saw this cliff, I was on the way to a rocket ship. Well, it just looks like a rocket but it’s actually a slide. That is also on the edge of a cliff but this location overlooks the ocean and just has a better view overall. Anyway, I remember driving by and thinking that this would be the perfect place to leave earth voluntarily.

Today seemed like a good day to explore that idea. I no longer have the desire to experience the days that are waiting for me. All I have now is a cheap bottle of wine that was given to me out of pity and the desire to summon a jacket. As a symbol of separating myself from pity, it felt natural to discard the bottle towards the breathtaking view that was before me. Watching the bottle lose form as the glass and its contents dispersed into the waves reminded me that I do not want to end up like that particular bottle. I realize that if I preserve the bottle and give the wine some time to grow, I might be able to end up with an improved product that was given the opportunity to age as opposed to a pile of shattered glass along with a substance that resembles blood. I don’t know if I’ll ever need to return here but I definitely need a jacket.