Just a stranger with a face I used to know

I can still feel the warmth of your embrace

You always had voice of an Angel

Now all I hear are echos of love that ran dry

You had a laughter that could light up the room. I let my stupid heart fall for you too soon

You were my lover, though I could never find the words to express that. Every day I saw you I gave into my heart every day I thought

Of you and our love every day…. Till you tore us apart.

Anxiety and sleepless nights meant nothing

When I knew we were still ok. I could still hear your voice though it was on the phone every Monday.

Waiting staring out the window watching the cars go by watching the sunsets bleed into the west. Every time I would glance that way

I knew you were miles away.

Slowly your voice faded as you stopped responding. Anxiety and restless nights

Panicking not knowing if you were alright

Oh my stranger with a face I once knew

You said you loved me

You said you’d come back

You said you still cared

That’s when I believed the lies cause

You say you’d come but then text a week later to say your not. The days keep going by

Losing hope that you’d truly come

You said you’d help me but it tore me apart

You said you’d come back but your not here…

Last time I saw your face was at my sisters wedding now that memory is a sad one cause you flooded my mind made me believe very thing was alright

I broke down in tears after I recognized you

It wasn’t caused I missed you it’s cause you aren’t the same anymore tired lines beneath your eyes the smell of cigarettes.

You turned your back before the party was over before you fled the scene you claimed you had work yet you didn’t see the same pain reflect in our nieces life like what you did to mine.

It hurts when your brought up in a conversation I guess your playing nice to keep mom from freaking out toying with her emotions still pretending you care, maybe you do but I no longer care.

I don’t text you very often cuz I know you won’t respond yet every time you do your still trying to keep this afloat.

I won’t lie the only thing you gave me was realization. Not to love someone more than yourself, not to put all your dreams on that person cuz one day they will walk away just like you, aye Beckah?

I have to thank you for breaking my trust

For hurting me so bad beyond recovery

Because of you loyalty is the 1. Thing I value

Because of you I learned to use my head

Because of you I learned how to stand on my own

Because of you I learned not to trust people fully ever again

Because of you I can’t look at a picture of us anymore cause pictures don’t change just the people inside them do

Because of you….

I had to let us go….

Because of you…

I had to say goodbye

Because of you….

Your more of a stranger

With a face to the person I once knew

—to the stranger called my sibling by blood —— Beckah ———