„What are you hiding? I have known you since forever. We promised we wouldn’t keep anything from each other. I kept my promise and I always thought you would too, but now I am not sure anymore,” Alex shook her head frustrated.

I know that it was bad, I couldn’t tell her the truth, it would change everything. Besides I am not even allowed to.

“It’s complicated”, was all I could think of.

Alex stood up and started walking around in the kitchen.

“I can’t believe this! After everything we’ve been through? I really believed we were friends. No, I believed we were more than friends, I thought maybe you would like me too, like like more than a friend like!”, shouted she at me. Her face glowing bright red, her eyes filled with angry tears.

“Please, Alex don’t. I can’t tell you. I.. I am not who you thought I was”, stuttert I. “

Alex uttered a contemptuous laugh: “Yeah, you are right, I really thought you would be different, but hey everyone makes mistakes. And you were mine!”

Ashamed Alex turned her back to me, when she started crying. I had to tell her the truth, I couldn’t lose her. I love her. She was so close to discover the truth all by herself, she literally saw me transforming. She knows something is odd.

But still I wasn’t ready to tell her: “Alex please understand.”

“No! I always understand. I don’t want to understand anymore. You can’t just.. forget it! I can’t stand you right now!”

“Alex wait! I.. I am.. I am Spiderman. Please don’t go. I need you. I love you!

Slowly she turned around: “I know. I wish you the best. Goodbye.”

My knees got weak, my head heavy, my thoughts loud, my sight black.