January— you held my heart from the very moment I met you.

February— what I fool I was to think you loved me back.

March— Your fingertips were cold to the touch I held out my hands for yours, almost like it was an aversion to the touch of my skin.

April— I knew winter had come and gone, so I walked to your house in the rain hoping you’d take me back.

May— You came back to give me my scarf, but by doing so, you left your umbrella at my house. Are you going to come back for it?

June— I guess I’ll keep it as a reminder that you existed. I found out from your mom that you left it on purpose.

July— You called me to meet you at the beach where you work. You said you’d pick me up for a walk on the beach. Is it foolish to bring the umbrella with me even though I know it won’t rain?

August— I don’t see how you work as a lifeguard. Aren’t you so hot all the time? I brought my sunscreen and couples are already holding hands. Can I hold yours?

September— I felt your lips brush against mine. Was it a playful kiss? If so, I welcomed it. Does it also count as hugging when we’re swimming and all I can do is hold onto you?

October— I keep seeing you in the hallways, but we have different classes so I don’t get a chance to talk long. Do you think about summer like how I do?

November- I haven’t heard from you, so I called and left s voicemail. Maybe you’re busy at Thanksgiving with your family? Mine wondered where you were at this time of year.

December— You wrote me a letter apologising because you were so busy with school but I saw you with your best friends and they told me you didn’t tell me everything. We haven’t talked in a month. Should I accept your apology? This hasn’t happened often lately. But I think I still love him…

January— What a fool she was to think I loved her back. I’m moving to college soon anyways and will probably find someone else. Ugh, I hate hook up culture, but I don’t want anyone else.