“I thought you would get mad”

That was it

I finally saw what I did

My friends

The people I considered family

Didn’t even tell me the truth

I cant blame them though

I was the one that should be blamed

My entire personality built upon being kind

Just for the people I love most to lie

Because I had changed for the worst

I had hurt people

I had hurt people

I had hurt people

I HAD HURT PEOPLE

My brain won’t stop screaming

I broke trust

I was naive when doing it

And then thought I was the victim all along

I was never the victim

I was only ever the enemy to me and everyone else

The universe now took its toll on me

I always had to be the generous one

I learned the hard way to never focus on myself

I will never do it again

This guilt may be enough to kill me