I keep my head underwater

Watching the bubbles rise above me

My hair dancing around me

The water gets thicker

It clogs my throat

And fills my nostrils

I let my body loose

Let my legs stop fighting

My arms stop flailing

I let myself sink further into the depth

Of the water

My throat tightens

My body wanting air

I try to break to the surface

But the monster inside me

Won’t let

Me go

I stop moving

Listening only to the sound of waves

Surrounding me

And I’m uncertain

If I should break free

Or let go