I don’t even wake up anymore

I don’t take my morning strolls

I don’t feed the pigeons

And i feel I’ve lost control

Nothing feels right anymore

Music drowns out my thoughts

And emotions dull in the beat

Nutmeg tea and honey

Used to hit the spot

But now more than not

I refuse to drink at all

I used to love a winter breeze

And to smile with pearly white teeth

I can’t feel the emotion

And I don’t know if I want too

I can’t go to the zoo

Without being jealous of the penguins

They get to sit in Antarctica

While I am surronded by people

Nothing seems to make me happy

And i never seem to wake

I want to escape this pain

But it is my new reality