I’m so sorry

That my mind is on fire

Burning endlessly

Like the hills of California

I’m so sorry

That I can’t love you the way you want

Unconditionally

Fully committed to your lack of love

I’m sorry that we both deserve better

I don’t want you

Which is horrible because you make me happy

But you never text first

Never reply quickly

Never make the effort

Never ask about my day

I deserve better

You deserve better too

Someone who likes listening to you

Someone who needs less validation

Someone who looks as pretty as they act

But you don’t really want me

You just pretend you do

We’re both just so lonely

That we jumped in headfirst

Without even seeing the water below us

Maybe you lovebombed me

Maybe you realized that you didn’t feel it

Maybe I did

I don’t know what’s happening

Maybe your phone really did get taken away

And I’m over reacting

Or maybe we both prefer when the other

Doesn’t speak

But I’m too nice to talk over you

We don’t belong together

We’re too similar

Too different

We both deserve better

I hope you’ll forgive me when the time comes

That I have to leave

And I hope you know

It’s not your fault

But you could have tried just a little harder

I’d beg for your forgiveness

But I really don’t care if you forgive me

It doesn’t matter

That’s why you deserve someone better

I wonder if you ever think about me

Randomly

I wonder what you think when you look at me

Do you think I’m pretty?

I don’t know

You never say anything

I deserve better

You owe me an apology that I’m never going to get

But I owe you more apologies than I can count

So I’m sorry we can’t love each other