Not just another walk in the park

This..this one…was other-worldly

Obsessive and unrelenting

Vicious yet fictitious

Unlike any vessel I’d consumed

From the moment I saw you

It took everything inside not to run

Should’ve could’ve would’ve

A dark and twisty rollercoaster

I leaned into loss and power

Tasted light and shadows

How does one just go on

Knowing and not wanting to

The depths of wondrously quiet

I may have stayed in them forever

But something pulled me to the horizon

I still float upon the peaks and valleys

what is left of me

Mirrored reality casting shadows

Cackling beasts bask in my naïveté

Not too far but just out of reach

The hanging woman

Not alive.. but surely not dead

Excruciatingly empty I drift