Its always been true Despite attempts to hide Layered sediment concealed Mounds of lies upon lies Personas of appeasement Trading truth for comfort Rearranging my outsides Pretending to be perfect

I used to think Brave was an award Battles won, new paths forged Many lessons I’ve learned these days Sometimes courage is just walking away No longer fighting, needing to be heard Embracing the silence, not saying a word Strength is balanced equal parts Removing the shield, bearing your heart Expose the soft side, vulnerable and free Bravery is daring to live authentically

I stand before you with hopeful eyes Your edges are glistening, sharp as knives A familiar image nostalgia contorted Eyes empty pools, black, distorted Duality is opposites on the same thread Scales balanced, joy the bedfellow of dread A siphon of energy a thief in the night But is it really stealing, if I don’t fight I burned bright as the sun, a dying supernova Your handiwork imploded my false persona Shockwaves echo even now that you’re gone Madonna’s mask erased, no longer a fawn Awakened dark mistress arose from the flames A fool turned Empress no longer ashamed You mirrored shadows, reflected my wounds A torch of destruction annihilated this tomb Towers crumbled foundations upended The star in a vacuum, broken, rejected

I’ve played it a million times Rewind, play, rewind Details seared in my mind Final wishes determined A lifetime on fast forward

Unfolds in this hospital bed

Generations of tragedy at play Interconnected fates Woven tapestries collide this day Culminating in a moment

Innocent eyes say their goodbyes

She weeps behind porcelain mask Tasked with protecting his dignity The Weeping Widows first battle Starts with loss that forges her in fire

Grief is a black hole

But she is a blazing pyre

I saw it slipping that night Aglow in Summer’s star light I believe for a second oh so brief You exposed the fire writhing beneath Swept up in a feeling floating on air We dropped the act, it was crystal clear Bathed in green light and dopamine We floated above the shadows pristine Beautifully broken fused with blood Stained distorted and covered in mud Cloaking the light within dim and recluse Worn it so long that it’s become your truth Cloak stripped bare a moment Years of isolation torture and torment I wish I knew sooner but still would stay Our time was up long before that day Power and pleasure wrapped bound Silenced voiceless blackness surround I’ll admit I got off on the hurtful display I don’t like to lose unable to walk away The distance a pathway to silent solace No longer my Sun no longer my prophet Trials of tragedy epic proportions Awakened Kali destroyed distortions We were mirrors always meant to shatter Karmic contracts completed thereafter Clarity revealed the protégé’s disguise Rose colored glasses smashed to the side Thanks for the memories oh so sweet May you choke on your words forever, peace

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Not just another walk in the park This..this one…was other-worldly Obsessive and unrelenting Vicious yet fictitious Unlike any vessel I’d consumed From the moment I saw you It took everything inside not to run Should’ve could’ve would’ve A dark and twisty rollercoaster I leaned into loss and power Tasted light and shadows How does one just go on Knowing and not wanting to The depths of wondrously quiet I may have stayed in them forever But something pulled me to the horizon I still float upon the peaks and valleys what is left of me Mirrored reality casting shadows Cackling beasts bask in my naïveté Not too far but just out of reach The hanging woman Not alive.. but surely not dead Excruciatingly empty I drift

Why you gotta play me now Wow I see all your lousy lies Eyes Reflected, dissected mirror Deliver Lessons as old as time Rewind Battleground of dark and light Appetite Destruction and rebirth Hearth Bringing forth the stone Hidden away and tarnished Polished Shiny and new with promise Astonished

The Revelation on Myself

He was graceful while holding doors And my throat A walking contradiction sweet and full of vindication silent violence Chess moves logical yet absurd Clinging to every word push then pull then repeat Lovebomb, devalue, ghost, block, delete See what you don’t know at first Is the Brilliant Neanderthal Gets off on the hurt Calculates and plots perfect timing Waiting to strike when you’re light is shining Not once did he raise his voice or demand I flew willingly to this Idiots Neverland Becoming it’s Tiger Lily with pride in hand

Savage enough to Win at all costs Didn’t care how it came across Wild things aren’t mean to be tamed eventually the moth would find the flame His & her lies instead of closets Thinking it was an equation And I might actually solve it Lesson upon lesson 3 cycles in fact Exposing the shadows, the sickness of lack reflected back and served as a snack

Egomaniac

with an inferiority complex Emptied my cups & moved onto the next Funny though how brokenness saved me Fear of love, abandonment, rejection Soul stripped from physical

Redirection

A tragedy of epic proportions Cracked open my chest Released from matrix distortions What a fine show we put on my friend I’ll catch you on the next one Where I’ll be on the serving end

She survived “Forgiveness - Level 10”

She knelt before him Hands beneath a silver platter The Ace of cups awaited the king Her battle scarred heart beating Placed poetically atop white doilies Bloody but still beating It was his for the taking Held, beheld, beloved

Broken and brilliant I thought.

AWAKENED

Flickering shadows dart across the ceiling

My eyes a lustful pyre keen

AWARE

A belated push present for the butterfly

Climbing in my bedroom window

ALIVE

The Wolf with hazel eyes of a generous boy

Stolen innocence taught him to lie

A MESS

Prayers to the sky as I fear the worst

Stories of Neverland & Wendy’s before me

I wonder how long until he devours me

AGAIN