“quite the craptastic sister” they say. mocking my mistake, joking with me.

joy lies in their eyes, glittering in the dim light.

they don’t see the pain they inflict. conceal. conceal. conceal.

“i’m disappointed” he said.

the conversation ended. i lightened the mood.

i’m fine. i’m fine. i’m fine.

“you don’t care enough to fix the heart you broke “

a song accuses me of exactly what i’ve done.

i hurt him bc i don’t love him back. bc i don’t know how to love him back. because i don’t care enough anymore.

pretend. pretend. pretend.

conceal you’re pain. “you’re fine”. pretend to be happy. pretend to be fine.

pretend. pretend. pretend.