A constant chase a never ending race .

I just can’t seem to find the pace ; I just keep running in place .

Maybe I am a waste , the way my doubts chased me in a race . Trying to find the exit sign from the maze and find a safe place .

I know I never tried to fight , I was never bright . The way I succumbed to your every need oh how I was so dumb you were just having fun .

Im a victim in the system but without proof I’m nothing more than a defenceless dog shouting woof in a crowd that aren’t willing to listen .

I know everyone doubting the screams the way he used to play his schemes the way he would sew up the seams and draw me inside every time I cried .

The way he lured me back inside the way you manipulated my mind and tried to act kind the way you shoved your love to make me blind .

Everyday I’d wake up and slap on some makeup to cover the bruise , I refuse to get views for the abuse , I don’t want them spreading the news .

Everybody relationship has scraps a few hurtful yaps don’t run laps creating excuses for his misuses the way he seduces .

But no one cares !

You can keep your petty little prayers because it’s not fair the way you compare my despair . The way you’re so blissfully unaware the way you dare to speak about the weak were not freaks .

You used my skin to commit your sin as you pinned me down the way you made me frown and made me contemplate the way I’d drown .

I just want people to stop asking .

I’m not okay !

Not today not any day my life is just grey , I’m living is dismay maybe I’m decaying .

My flesh needs to be refreshed no shower can clean the deed . I just want to be freed maybe I need to bleed to have visible wounds for people to understand .

The way his actions engraved in my soul like the very wounds I etched across my skin the way he pinned fear making my life unclear .

The way I’m struggling to trust another being .

Just like i discussed maybe they’re seeing as they begin agreeing this is great for my wellbeing . But the thoughts still fleeing maybe they should be disagreeing.

But it took to long for people to discover so how long will it take me to recover ?

The truth finally came to light ,

maybe soon I’ll feel alright .