8 wonders of the world see everyone think it’s a place that you need to race of too to visit to take a picture to admire something you must aquire .
But you know what I belive it a feeling an emotion that pure joy like when you were a boy buying your favourite toy .
The way you Smile makes each day worthwhile as you spread positivity at every chance as you dance through the day.
That determination to create your own inspiration to carry on through the dark even when you struggle to see your own spark .
Don’t you see all the Love shining down from above that your sign to never give up .
Your confidence to try even when you thoughts run dry .
How you held up other people rope to help the feel able to cope you provide people hope to carry on .
You spread your kindness to mend to help create a beautiful end so you can stress a little bit less .
You showed people support that didn’t need to be bought .
Each emotion we are given that make our life worthwhile living is worth sharing because the world can do with more careing people like you !
As a child I was always viewed as shy not wild and active like the rest but for me that was for the best .
As I grew my emotion became new the feeling of company was a worry but everyone else was in such a hurry to notice my struggles .
As I teen I got used to the streams of tears and endless waves of fears and constant eyes feeding me with lies .
aren’t you counting the amount of time she frowning can’t you see she not okay she struggling to find her reason to stay .
Yes I know she says she fine she repeates that line every time someone asks but hopes somone sees the signs .
She struggling to decide wether she wants to die or if it’s all a lie ? she just doesn’t want to live in pain but the thought make her feel Insaine .
You see now I’m older I still check the chart and see the scale I knew I shoudnt of ate that tart I just wish my clothes were tighter that I was a little bit lighter .
I’m a mess I wish I could think less and maybe get some real rest and not be wasted my nights stairing at the wall or feel like I’m always pacing down the halls of my mind trying to find some peace .
My arm became a jigsaw with scars piecing together my hurt as the red decorated my shirt .
I know I should find a way to stay calm so I don’t cause an alarm , I never intended to harm but found comfort in the action but felt the guilt when seeing other people reaction .
My heart grew heavy cause I was never smart maybe every action I was pulling myself apart .
( my bad for bad punctuation but in a bit of hurry and didn’t want to get writer block so just wrote so apologies)
Don’t you see ? you’re worth so much more than gold. I know sometimes it feels like we’re stuck in the cold so numb to the pain as we’re so used to getting blamed .
But those feeling are your own and no one can say your wrong for coping and it really hard to start hoping it’ll all be gone but soon you’ll be fine it just takes a whole lot of time .
Dont you dare even question what you’ve achieved ; for all the choices you’ve made , it wasn’t fair but you still showed the world you care .
Just know I’m proud of you for carrying on despite the hardship you’ve faced in this mad dash world where everything seem rushed like a race .
All the chaos you’ve dealt and still faced each day with a smile as you made each moment worthwhile .
Just remember you are strong and I know the road is long and seems all uphill as each emotion weigh you down as it drags along the ground .
Ask for help even if it’s quiet let out a yelp , the small steps matter and so do you !
So don’t let the fear hold you down let it go like a ballon watch it drift away all the way to the moon .
At the clock strike midnight , all this year will be gone . All those lonely nights will be done as you let out a big yawn .
Get set for a new adventure a fresh start as you set out and follow your heart .
Your dreams aren’t too far it seems you’ve just got to take the leap before the regret creeps .
Don’t keep those emotions in as life makes you weep let it go and finally be free so you can live a life full of glee .
I hope your night is filled with wishes and a whole heap of kisses as you settle down and place down your crown .
You’ve done your best so now it’s your time to rest .
Don’t let anyone who hasn’t walked in your shoes tell you how to tie your laces remember your destined travel to great places.
At least everyone say we shouldn’t race to be first place to not focus on our friends to not follow any trends .
They tell you to clean the mess you have created , but they have never stained the floors with there own blood .
Judged for every mistake and imperfection as they nudge my mind to the tomb , as you wait for it to consume my soul as you watch me fall .
You see society is filled with people that carry two faces , People who are willing to throw you into a grave to dim your light and stop you from being brave .
The scar upon my skin are proof of the battle I faught within my mind . I wish I could rewind to the day I etched the blade across my skin the way I signed the design .
The never ending plaster hopeing to fix the disaster , hiding the gaping wound to escape from the harm that I inflict upon myself , how the urges always win .
Don’t be alarmed ! I’m trying to be calm the way I trace around my palm taking a breath with every stroke , inhaling to ease the drumming of my chest to find a moment of rest .
Can’t you see I’m doing my best .
They always tell me to stay ; it ill be fun they say. But I know they’re lying deep down but all I can do is frown to wipe away another tear as I welcome a new year . What will that year hold ?we’ll soon the story will unfold , just settle in get ready for the cold .
I’m expecting the worst at this point ; I might as well be a curse . My mind has me wishing to be in a hearse to get rid of this sick existence .
All these tears you shed that you hide until you reach your bed all those thoughts that consume your head those ones that bring you dread .
i keep on trying , but the reality is I just want to die . I’m tired of everyone saying it’ll get better as my days turn wetter . Im flooded with fear day after day , as it leave me in dismay .
They say I’m depressed as they label me and send me on my way , a person too stressed to cope or atleast that what she says . They don’t care unless you take it too far all they want is one less problem for you to be gone for good .
But don’t you know they only want to help let me share what you said are you sure you want to be dead ?
Think about your future that will all be gone. You mean the one I haven’t even planned ? I can’t even stand to imagine my days being filled with more gloom cause let be honest , I’m destined for doom .
I made a mistake I don’t want to wake up I don’t think it normal to want to give up . I wish my life was a dream one that i could wake up from as I let out a scream .
The ability for change , isn’t just a thought that can be bought . Maybe you fought to be taught the lesson at hand the one that caused you to stand . A vision is essential a great descion a goal to create control to seek higher potential . A way to dream to redeem my self esteem to find a boost to leave the roost . But you gotta be the action ,To create a reaction . Be the change ; fight for a way to brave another day , find your reason to stay . Let your light glow and soon you’ll find your confidence grows . To find a way to escape for a freedom so vast , to find hope at last . Stand out from the crowd , be bold , be loud , make everyone proud . To no longer roam in the land of the unknown , But to pave your path to your thrown .
As everyone spreads there positivity to demolish your negativity but that bridge can never be burned or at least that’s what I learned .
I’m trying but I still feel like dying it like I’m stuck in a commotion a restless motion of uneasy pain that leaves you believing your insane .
My thoughts were carelessly dancing in my head to form a distraction to prevent a reaction of a tear to conceal every hint of fear so no one came near .
But no one hears the endless excuses as I try to convince myself I’m getting better yet the stain on my sweater tells a different story but maybe that one too gory .
Is it a crime to convince myself I’m fine ?
Am I the victim of my mind trying to prevail but I’m too broke to pay the bail to be realised from the jail of negativity .
Love drove me to a crime and I know your gonna say there no place or time that will make it okay!
She didn’t wanna stay in pain she wished each day it would go away .
They signed her a will as they passed her more pills .
To numb the pain to reduce the strain on her brain .
She wanted peace so that day was her release !
She was a dancer battling stage 4 cancer.
Would you want to be in persistent pain ?
Am I ashamed ; yes I am to blame , I put her wishes for peace in my own hands I don’t need you to understand .
She now at rest it’s for the best !
I’ll pay the crime , I’ll do the time cause now I know she’s fine .
