Chaotic?

Chaotic.

How do you spell chaotic?

Does it start with a C…? No, a … K?

Maybe I can sound it out.

Kay-o-tic?

Damn it.

Second guessing myself is the worst.

I’m a journalist and I can’t even remember how to spell this word.

Everything in my life is so… chaotic.

My wife wanted me to start this job, but it doesn’t pay very much and now it feels like this whole article hinges on this one word. I didn’t even want this job and lied to get it. I think I’m not really qualified.

Heck, I told my employer that I interviewed employees working at the new animal shelter that’s across the street. He thought it was cool and who doesn’t like animals? I think he felt bad for me and gave me this job. Besides It’s not like I can ask him how to spell it or even my co-workers. They’ll probably think I’m stupid. Heck, even AI might mock me. Maybe I should think more highly of myself. But what if I don’t meet the deadline? Will my boss fire me? Then my life really will be chaotic. I’m drowning in work and my wife is already working two jobs to help pay the rent. So, this word… this word… is making me feel… chaotic.