When you were a child, you drew a picture of your dream partner. Twenty years later, you are walking down the street and see someone who is an exact replica of what you drew. Unfortunately, you were a terrible artist back them. I was on Orangewood and Lewis Street when destiny hit me. There in front of me stood the man I drew once upon a dream when I was a child. But I live in the real world now and I no longer believe the bullshit fairytale stories my parents fed me as a child. I look up and see a man with dark hair, brown eyes, tall with a muscular build and wonder what lies deep within his heart. In my head I can hear the song playing of once upon a dream....I stop and start laughing hysterically as I find that completely hilarious. The song switches in my head to the Halloween movie sound track now that is more like real life. Fuck the bullshit life is not a fantasy and why we feed our children such stories is beyond me. Reality is life is hard and no perfect man is going to sweep you off your feet. We all are flawed. We grow up and the shit gets real. I was in love with a guy. Things were good. He would send me cute little notes and leave me little gifts in my car. We would laugh together and I could tell him anything. We were in love so I thought. We had a beautiful daughter together, but reality was you can't control someone else so he left. As a mother I so dearly wanted him to be a part of his daughters life as I didn't have my father present in my life. I did not want a repeat cycle, but I came to realize that I had to do the best I could. I had to make a stable life for me and my child as I could not rely on the man who fathered her. My heart ached for her as I want more for my little girl. I want her to have a family. Reality is you meet a man he to comes from somewhere . You do not know his background. Where he comes from or what his life experiences that has shaped him are. It takes time to really get to know someone. Getting to know them is like peeling an onion. You slowly peel each layer by layer to build trust and build honesty. Relationships are hard and as you peel that onion it may cause you to tear up, because reality is the other person does not always act in the way you expected in your mind. I know sad right! Such is life. There are no guarantees and life is really a freaking roller coaster. Make yourself happy and be secure with you. Perfection is fiction end of story. Beam me up Scotty!!!