Heartbreaking

My wife, and I were five weeks into our pregnancy, when she started spotting. At that time we lived just minutes from the hospital. We immediately went to the emergency room at the hospital for my wife to be seen. Like normal we got called back to the examination room and we told the doctor what was going on. He did his examination on her and he ordered for my wife to have an ultrasound done. After my wife got finished having the ultrasound done within the next hour we got news we didn’t want to hear. The doctor told both of us that he was sorry to have to inform us but it was a tubal pregnancy. When hearing those words we both were devastated. The doctor told us that my wife would need emergency surgery right away. On top of receiving bad news this was more then we could possibly take in one day. I don’t think I have ever cried as much in one day as I did that day. We were looking so forward to becoming parents and having little ones running around the house. My wife Carol ended up having emergency surgery that evening. I remember setting in the waiting room alone. All I remember doing was praying and asking God to let Carol make it though this.

I’ll never forget that day as long as I Live! If I told you it gets easier I'd be lying, it's minute to minute somedays and day to day on other days and then you have hr to hr days. You never get over it you just learn to deal and function the best you can. It's the worse kind of heartache that's for sure. I'm learning that accepting has to happen. 6 years later I still haven't, I'm struggling bad with it. Ive always learned to let it out rather hold it in. It will hit you at the most random times. I went to the restroom alone for a few mins to get my eye’s and face dried, serval times then right back at life it sucks it does. I'm praying for all those who may have to face the trials as my wife and I have already faced in the past six years. We are still believing that God will send us our little miracle.

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