I look at the pills

They stare back

My family stares at me

I avoid their eyes

This could change everything.

Suddenly I grab them

Then throw them into my mouth

I swallow

With a massive gulp of water

It’s done.

I’ve been taking them for a while

But still feel a sense of shame

If someone comes round

I scramble

To quickly hide them.

But slowly they start to take effect

The world seems a little brighter

My mind quietens

Just a little

I start to feel a glimmer of hope.

Then one day I’m self aware

Conscious of life again

But understanding brings guilt

What had I done

Putting my family through this.

Years later

Didn’t think

I’d still be here

But I got help

And I made it.

Yay!