An irrational fear has always stopped me from doing a certain activity with my friends. Today, I decide that I’m going to face the fear of loving someone and letting them go. It feels like sky diving. There’s a possibility that I could jump out and land safely but there is also a possibility that I land into a million pieces on the earths ground. Love is never easy because most people are not easy to love. I loved him for many reasons but letting him go??!? That gives any other woman permission to experience him the way that I did, that gives him permission to live, to love without me. I fear being alone because that was how I came to this world, that was how I sat in darkness, that was how my shadow was my best friend, that was how I spent lunch in a bathroom stall. Alone. I don’t want to be alone. I fear that my sky diving with leave me dead and alone. Dead and forgotten, dead and broken, broken and dead. I don’t want to be alone but today I jump. Today I jump into the unknown. Today I know that whatever is meant to be will be for me. If I love something and let it go, it can stay gone or return. Today I know that love is not about possessiveness but about appreciating the experiences that we share and allowing things and people to be. Today my mantra is, “live and let others live”. Today I fly into the wind of love, and dive into the waters of inner peace. Yesterday I was fearful, today I am fearless.