Today is the day I change. I'm so excited. I'm getting my hair cut! I'm so excited! I'm sorry, I know I'm saying it again but I am! For the first time in my life I am going to look like myself. I will have hair that sticks up in all directions and doesn't look like a girl's. It's going to be amazing! I want to look like you can't tell my gender. I want people to be so confused they come up to me and ask. Then I have the chance to explain. To explain that I'm not a girl or a boy. I'm neither, something in between and if they ask what that means I can walk away or just tell them to look it up. I just really need someone to ask, just once. Just once I need someone to ask and not assume, to care instead of judge and if they don't understand that's ok. I just hope I don't have to be the same person I've always been: the girl who hates the world because no one knows any better than to use she/her.