I’ll make you a bracelet

it’ll be blue and purple

like mine

it’ll have your nickname

four little beads tied into it

i don’t have the supplies at the moment

if i did you would be wearing it right now

but ill make it so good

i’ll tie it so well it never breaks

like how my love for you never did

i know you thought i talked bad

but i didn’t

i still don’t

i talk about you

like we’re still friends

i say how you understood me

how you defended me endlessly

when boys were mean

people ask about my bracelet

i tell them

“oh yeah my friend made it”

“i’ve worn it for a year now”

i talk about you with a sad smile

because i love you

but you’re not here

and i look at you

and i smile sadly

because when i think of you

i don’t think of being mad that we stopped talking

i think of you telling me

everything will be okay

when i got my first heartbreak

i think of you hugging me for minutes on end

no one does that for me

i think of our long talks

and how i always felt safe around you

and how i don’t really feel that with a lot of people

i dont know what happened

when we stopped talking

i miss you

maybe it was miscommunication

i don’t really care

i’ve missed you

i miss your gentle voice

and your hugs

high school is mean

you aren’t

girls are mean

you aren’t