i will creep in when you least expect it. you cannot escape me. i inhabit the cells that make you. i taint your memories with a red haze. everything that once was, is now not. your dreams are unattainable. your desires… are undesirable. i tear you apart, you are nothing. my words like individual hairs pulled from the scalp. you believe them. i am the blood in your veins. your heart pumps me right to your brain. i am in your thoughts. the lies become the truth. i run rampant with doubt, fleeing with thoughts of worthiness. once you are decrepit, a shell of yourself, i will recede. falling dormant into the depths of your soul. until i am called again.