our concrete was cracked, but to be fair, 

we poured it so quickly.

it was too hot outside.

we did not even let the concrete dry,

before we started building.

why were we so surpised when the roof fell through?

why was that shocking?

and the hard hats we had on weren’t enough to break the fall.

we should’ve seen it coming,

you know?

when the hammer broke and the nails ran out.

when the window would...

todays my birthday but you knew that,

i waited by the phone but no call.

i waited by the door but no knock.

i blew out my candles and wished for you.

the presents weren’t enough to distract me from the absence of your own. i unwrapped each gift expecting to find something from you. i never did. my phone dings, i see the disappointment in my mothers eyes when it’s not you. you ruined my birthday a...

each day, you are washed away some more. with each shower and scrub the last of my skin that knew your touch is gone. and down the drain goes dead skin, dead memories, dead love. with everyday i become more clean, more me and less you....

it seems the constellation of my heart covered in mold; a dream once where love was bold.

the moon seldom remembers my souls intricate fold; before my minds desires sold.

the vast night littered with specks of gold; it was the last time i felt controlled.

our love pact you annulled; off jupiters face tears have rolled.

the sky full of stars seemed dead and cold; a place once so magical now ...

you left me there on the floor, every inch of my body covered in pain. i felt myself fall, absorbing into the crevices of the hardwood. laying there… my bones decomposing to become one with the surface beneath my body. for days my body unmoved. my heart remained with the knife you stabbed in it. i felt myself bleeding out. to heal would be unbearable, to recover would be unfathomable. it is here i...

he told me of a mask, a bright “look at me” mask. he occasionally put it on, until one day he couldn’t look at himself without it on. he didn’t recognize the man looking back at him. he couldn’t bare to be alone with the man behind the act, he wore the mask to bed. he wore it while he brushed his teeth. dinner with the family was protected and controlled by the bright cast of fake happiness he wo...

i will creep in when you least expect it. you cannot escape me. i inhabit the cells that make you. i taint your memories with a red haze. everything that once was, is now not. your dreams are unattainable. your desires… are undesirable. i tear you apart, you are nothing. my words like individual hairs pulled from the scalp. you believe them. i am the blood in your veins. your heart pumps me right ...

this is love

“you are mine”

whispers linger on my ears

his arms are my home

you are mine

his kiss on my lips

his arms are my home

the look in his eyes says forever

his kiss on my lips

chest rising and falling

the look in his eyes says forever

and my heartbeat spells his name...

the light is coming from the corner of the room, a green lamp on a white table. next to the table is a queen size bed with white and blue floral sheets. the down comforter lays across is at all. the bed adorned with a small stuffed animal. opposite the end of the bed is a floor length mirror decorated with sticky notes of reminders that she is beautiful. written in a man’s writing. white cowboy ha...

the story of my awakening was much less of a grand epic story of teenage angst… more like wayy to much time alone in my apartment at 21. i have realized the basics like what i like to watch on tv, read, or even what i prefer for dinner. i don’t like to drink or party with friends, i’d rather learn an instrument or write a poem. i believed myself to be boring, mundane is the word i use. but i woke...