The feeling grips at my chest

Pulls on my heart

Compresses my lungs

Evelops me whole

My mind body and soul

a void of all emotion

but sadness

and loneliness

The silence is so loud

its hurts my head

It lwaves to much to the imagination

I need a quiet silence

One friend among all

they say fish in the sea

but not to me

for I am one in a lone tank

I sit alone

reading a book

scrolling a feed

listen to me scream

I need a lover

or a fighter

I need a friend

Or a survivor

Feel my heart beat

listen to my lungs breathe

watch my eyes blink

We are human you and me

I am one in the same

differnt though I may be

Just a quirk

Unfixable but lovable

I cry with lights out

Write until my hands bleed

Shower with lava

and stay up till 2

I need a friend

me and you?

But no there are others

You would choose first

I never come second

or even third

its the worst

I am a last priority

I get texts on my birthday

from people who never reach out

People who used to love me

But now our friendship is a drought

I wish to explore

and immerse

I wish to have so much joy

I could burst

But i sit alone

Bored at home

a lonely poet

dont you know it

But if you were my friend

would you leave me in the silence

or would you join me

so we could be lonely together

…

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