Looking at the night

At the darkest time

Nothing but light

When i look in your eyes

But when your eyes close’s

Mine fills with tears and hurt

Hate and love

Shame and anger

Anxiety and disgust

Pain and fear

All at ones

All in one tear

One tear when you look away

One tear

All my thoughts

Long hidden in the shadows

Now slowly escaping

One tear after the other

Forming a puddle

Slowly forming a lake

Turning in to a sea

Which is now an ocean

An ocean filled with my emotions

So beautiful from the surface

But deep deep down

In the darkest and coldest waters

Is where everything is hiding

I have always been in the puddle

That turned in to the lake

That turned in to the sea

That turned in to the ocean

I am used to drowning

But when I am drowning in my ocean

You are always there with a lifebuoy

Pulling me up to the surface

I am still in the water

But now breathing