A scar on bare skin you may see as ugly and trauma

But I se survival and beauty

A scar can show everything

It can be a scar from a fall when you where a child

It can show a trauma from a person you never want to se again

It can show all the pain you where in

It can tell a story you never want to relieve

Or a story you miss and would give anything to relieve again

Scars are somehow beautifu...

If only i could live

Live without this thoughts

This pain

This loneliness

This feeling that everything is fake

If only I could laugh without crying hours later

If only I could dance without feeling the ground beneath opening up to swallow me whole

If only I could feel free like the birds flying in the blue sky above

If only I could run and just feel the wind in my hair as it is flowing in ...

Remember the time before everything

Before you and him and now him

When it was you and I

Just us, laughing and talking about life

Now I don’t know you, always about guys

It all started with him

And then a new him

And a new

And a new

And now it’s him

Always someone

Never you and I anymore

I lost my best friend, now it’s just you and him...

Thinking this would be it

The new start

But ones again I am the quiet kid

In the shadows

Hidden from all the shining people I see from my corner

I love watching them

Though I can not help but wonder

What if I was that shining light

What if I was the one, that everyone wanted on there side

What if I was out

Dancing in the light

But no

No… I am in the shadows everyone passes without even lookin...

Loving and fighting

You and I

Together and forever

Together we love

Together we cry

I am so grateful to have your love

Grateful for your smile

Grateful for your time

Grateful for your hug

So grateful for you

Without you holding my hand

Telling me am worth love

Worth smiles and hugs

Worth you and everyone

.. I am nothing but hate and cry

Lonely and afraid

Hiding in the shadows

You i...

Looking at the night

At the darkest time

Nothing but light

When i look in your eyes

But when your eyes close’s

Mine fills with tears and hurt

Hate and love

Shame and anger

Anxiety and disgust

Pain and fear

All at ones

All in one tear

One tear when you look away

One tear

All my thoughts

Long hidden in the shadows

Now slowly escaping

One tear after the other

Forming a puddle

Slowly f...

I’m fine

I’m fine

I’m fine

I hear it every day

All over in my brain

I try to pretend

I want to believe it

I want to believe it so so bad

But I know, I know deep deep inside

That I’m not fine

If I was fine

I wouldn’t have all this lines all over my arm

If I was fine

I wouldn’t feel this urge just to disappear

If I was fine

I wouldn’t sit here in the darkness of my room

Crying

Crying all o...

Dear little sister

I love you so much

You are my whole world

You are the reason I wake up in the mornings

You are the reason I keep on fighting

The way you hug me when I’m not okay

The way you make me laugh even if I want to cry

The way you listen and understand me

The way you love me every day

The way you are you

I hate see you cry

I hate the thought that you could ever feel what I’ve fel...

I look at the stars above

Through my window

I smile

I see our star

It shines brighter then all the other stars filling the dark sky

It stands out

It is unique

Our star

Beautiful as ever

Lighting up the darkness

I see the star

I see you

I remember

You I love

You so beautiful

My only one

My memories

My life

My best friend

Our star

Our life

Our love

All memories

Soon to be forgotten

Lost ...