when I look in the mirror all I see is the person that I once was the person that was once filled with hope and childish dreams all grown up and filled with deep rooted scars

the person that looks back at me is diffrent now; shes cold when she used to be warm. life has beaten her down. all the hope that once filled her soul is now a small speck of light in her blue eyes.

when I look in the Mirror that little girl that once looked back at me with a playful smile has been replaced with something that is forced. the woment that looks back in the mirror is almost reconziable but I cannot place the finger on it. she is the imgae of the deepst insecurties when she should be the person I hope to be.

when I look in the mirror I see anger and hurt when I should be seeing life and love, that has been absent in my mirror for a long time. I see dark when I should see light, my reflection is not something I long to gaze at instead I find myself looking away in disgust.

The hardest thing about looking in the mirror is looking at the women looking back at me in the eyes and telling her that she is beautiful. that she is doing great.

when I look in the mirror I dont see the little girl that I once was… but I know shes still there. shes being guarded by the women that looks back at me. the one that needs me to tell her she is beautiful. shes protecting the little one from the hurt and the ugly from the world around.

but when I look in the mirror I want to see the girl filled with life the girl that I once was the girl that had bid childish dreams. and one day she will be there looking back at me but for now I am the women that I created to protect her.