All that I could feel was numbness. Even a prick of my finger didn’t make me flinch. I needed to buy one of the emotions.

He is in town today and as I head out the door the coins jingle in my pocket. Each different coin hits one another. God I hope I have enough money for one, I think to myself as I shut the door behind me.

He normally sets his tent up in the middle of the courtyard for everybody to see but today was different. He wasn’t there. He is always there on every first Tuesday of the month. Never in a different area. Always that one spot. Why is he not there? I need that drug or I don’t know what I’m going to do.

My head starts to feel heavy and my sight is blurry. God it’s happening again, I think to myself. I start to hyperventilate. My chest feels like it’s going to explode. I need to sit down, I think.

I try to walk over to a bench as I bump into people in the crowd. My brain is too foggy to even say that I’m sorry. Once I reach the bench I sit down and put my heads on my hands. I breathe in and out slowly trying to calm myself down. This is the only other emotion I feel that’s not numbness. I hate it.

After a few moments I am able to calm myself down. Someone pokes my shoulder and I look at them. “You look like you need a pill.” They say as they hand me a yellow pill.

“No thank you.” I say as I try to hand it back to them but they don’t take it.

“It’s a happiness pill. Are you sure you don’t want it?” They tell me. I gasp. A happiness pill is in my possession. These things are worth hundreds of dollars.

“I need, I need to pay you for this but I don’t have enough. Let me do something for you.” I tell him as I ramble on.

“It’s on the house.” They tell me with a smile as they poof away. On the house? Wait, was that the guy who sells the pills? I think. I immediately take the pill and everything becomes foggier then earlier.

Within a second all my worries disappear. Everything seems brighter, more happy. Am I happy? Is this what it feels like? I think to myself. A real genuine smile pops up on my face. “I’m happy.” I scream. Finally.