You think i need to go to the hospital? Am I really that bad. Am I so bad I’ll never amount to anything. How do you expect me to practice cello go to school do enough assignments to not get an f play orchestra music go to therapy every day and by then I won’t even have enough time or mental capacity to hangout with my friends. I can’t catch up anymore I’m done I’m tired and that’s all I’ll ever be. I won’t have time for fun I never do. I don’t deserve fun. I know I’m a burden to everyone around me no wonder everyone hates me. I ruin everything. Stop putting hope in me it only ends up being hopeless anyway. I can’t do this anymore. It will always hurt every day every hour which is why I should leave the world instead of dealing with constant pain.