Willow wrote in her journal the song of her life. 1 year earlier, willow met her biological family for the first time. As she walked to the door to knock nerves bubbling up as she waited for the door to open. She thought why hadn’t they looked for her? , what were they like ? But her thoughts were interrupted by the door opening it was a little girl who had to be about 9 maybe 10 years old. As she was escorted inside the home. She saw other children and dogs . Willow thought wow what a beautiful home just then came her mom came walking out the large kitchen holding out her arms to hug her. As they both hugged and cried together she was introduced to her other brothers and sisters 2 boys and 3girls they shared life updates and a meal and watched a movie together. The evening came to an end and her and her mom hugged again for a long while . Back in the car her adopted sister called Angie wills how did the meeting go she let out a Deep sigh it went well , then why do your words not match your tone and facial expressions? Then the tears started rolling down because she went on to have a great life other children without me she and she couldn’t speak anymore because the reality of her life compared with what she saw hurt to much . Willow had been foster care system for 17years going from family to family home to home state to state she was 24 years old now and Angie was from her second foster home and they got so close that they never lost contact with each other. The reality that her life was filled with anxiety and abandonment and rejection while her mother and father went off to start new lives and families with her they both showed so much care for the children they have now. Willow started remembering meeting her biological father just a few months prior and he was married had 2 children 2 boys. She remembered she was on the phone with her sister and just blurted out they both went on to have successful lives without me as if with me in the picture they couldn’t have a good life and she started crying again oh wills I’m so sorry I’m sure that sucks why don’t you come stay the night with me I don’t think it will be good to be alone . Willow drove to her sisters house and soon as she reached her door she just held her as she cried deeply in her arms that Angie cried too . Willow stopped crying and they just set on the couch holding each other in the pain that was so real and heavy. That was a year ago and now willow in the studio reminiscing on those days and tears rolling down her face she had come such a long way since realizing they just didn’t have the capacity to love her as she needed . As she started writing again her song left and alone went #1 on the indie charts and #5 on the independent charts and she thought about all the dms and paragraph she will receive on her Instagram and on her YouTube Music page of how her raw emotions summed up their hurt souls she realized sometimes your pain can heal others.