People often say they are haunted by their past.

They wish to move on to the future,

but history pulls itself at their feet.

I am not among them.

I claw at my memories as the years pass by,

a desperate attempt to return to the person I used to be,

and the world she knew so well.

To outgrow yourself is pain.

The world around you spins into a blur,

Unfamiliar and unforgiving.

The ground you cra...

When we don't allow ourselves to grieve, we end up becoming the grief.

In my mind, you're gone. You're like a bottomless void that never was and never will be, an opportunity that wouldn't have come in any parallel universe. But in my heart, things are different.

I still remember the way you hide underneath your hood when you're embarrassed, or how loud noises used to frustrate you so easily. ...

The song by The Black Eyed Peas always sends a euphoric chill up my back. It was years ago now, but this song reigned over a time where I was alone and confused. Probably the first time of many that these emotions would occur together, it incorporates a love for someone that I still miss.

When the song plays my first visual memory is of sitting on a bus. My first day at my most memorable job, a p...

Stacey looked at the familiar walls, which she had seen so many times during her childhood. But her eyes fell on a specific corner of the kitchen, where she had spent many afternoons growing up.

Her grandma loved to bake, and spent most of her time in the kitchen, while Stacey sat by her, giving her company. Stacey never liked to bake, but she loved being with her grandmother. So she would sit t...

I didn’t wanna leave

But I know it’s what’s best

My skin is burning as my tears burn my checks

“But I loved him” I repeat through my mind

I loved him.

His soft touch, his sweet eyes.

walking away felt like needles going through my body, flames corrupting inside my chest.

All the years I spent loving him, I could of been loving myself. But now as I walk through the ...

I can't look back. I can't look back into those ocean blue eyes-because if I did I would would drown in them and not be able to come up for air. If I did I would turn back around right now. So I don't, I look forward at where I need to go. Away. Away from her, away from my future, away from my other half. I know she's watching me leave, I know she's hoping, just hoping I turn around. But we both...

A poem for my dog, who died during the summer in 2023. I miss him everyday and I think I’m finally good to talk about him. It’s weird how people and things just leave. Just disappear. Without a goodbye 😢

I had to leave

The pain was too much

I thought I could bare it

But I couldn’t for long

I’m sorry

I loved them

With my whole heart

You’ll survive without me

I know it ❤️

He was sick

With can...

The disrespect felt almost deafening-

our love,a whisper-barely beckoning.

Haunted by the night you yelled out loud,

your secrets unfolded,you looked too proud.

If only for a moment,I could possibly scream,

rewrite the vision,shatter the dream.

But no I didn’t.That was all a lie.It only happened in the dreams I try to revive.

In truth,I froze.Eyes fell still.

I waited for his rage to lose its il...

I trusted you when you took my trembling hands in yours and wrapped your strong arms around my slender frame.

I trusted you when you when you let my weeping willow rain on your chest

I trusted you when you told me that you loved me

I trusted you when you told me I could trust you to hold the gun but not pull the trigger.

I _trusted_ you

And then you pulled it....

They’re gone. They’re gone. They’re really gone. I left. I was the one who left and now they’re gone. If I didn’t say that, if I didn’t leave, if I tried an ounce more, they could still be here. They could still be available. They would still be alive. No, they’re gone. They’re gone. They’re gone....