**Written from a space of:** the last time I would see her - the love of my life.

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My body tightens and I feel

the intense climax of our intense journey

Instead of the anticipation

of the deep exhale

I wonder how long I can hold

my breath until

tears turn into rivers

I blinked and here we stand

Can’t turn back now

I frantically want to hold on

while frantically letting go

this paradox is the only way

I’ve learned to cope

Please unconfuse me

What great blessings lie ahead

Which great memories will fade

Not sure I’m ready

to find out this way

Gravity has become my foe

pushing me unwillingly into fray

I’m grasping for air

Breathe. Let nature take its course

Not like I have a chose

But the path I do choose

let it be mine

and mine alone

Each breath intertwined

with my heart; Lord, be with me