**Written from a space of:** the last time I would see her - the love of my life.
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My body tightens and I feel
the intense climax of our intense journey
Instead of the anticipation
of the deep exhale
I wonder how long I can hold
my breath until
tears turn into rivers
I blinked and here we stand
Can’t turn back now
I frantically want to hold on
while frantically letting go
this paradox...
all eyes on me
ready to see, feel, hear
the words bouncing
off the mic
into the crowd
a piece of me
to be shared
give permission
for ears to
enter my soul
take control
for this brief
dramatic moment
I am all yours
you are all mine
our hearts intertwined
as we dance
to the same beat
my beat
inhale deeply
exhale slowly
I am ready...
As I looked into your eyes, I saw my future go up into flames.
It was a look I had not seen before, so I took my time to analyze it. To be sure.
Never in my worst nightmare would this be my reality. Unfortunately, the premonition was real.
Manifested itself two months later.
I desperately wish you’d kept your eyes closed....