I spoke and spoke continuously,

The words burst out like thunder and lightning,

I could not control the thoughts in my head,

Sometimes I did not realize what I said,

It’s as if my mouth smoke on its own,

I couldn’t control it all alone,

I felt so very out of place,

Sometimes I felt like I was in space,

I continuously got told to relax,

I felt my emotions reach their max,

It brought me down to my very bottom,

I felt depressed Winter, Spring, and Autumn,

During the summer everyone had fun,

But I stayed away soon as it begun,

I wanted out of any social situations,

And so I had no friendly relations,

But that was ok because no friendship lasted,

And so when they tried and I denied, they were flabbergasted,

People are confused to why I have no one,

They find it awkward when I say it and they start to run,

I’m all alone, but that’s ok,

At least I can practice all day,

Even if family said bad things to me,

Even if I sometimes don’t feel I’m free,

I’ll work on myself to be better,

I won’t be like this forever,

My heart breaks apart each time they say words,

“Relax”, “you’re making a scene”, “you’re the worst”,

I lay down quietly for hours on end,

Sometimes I feel I might be my only friend,

My only support, the only one that accepts me,

Some people just would not agree,

I will keep working hard on this goal,

I will not stop until I fall,

I just want to normal when I’m around,

The people so they don’t look me down,

A part of me still hurts no matter how many years,

Sometimes I feel myself winding up in tears,

But I’m still here, fighting this battle,

I’ll still be here, being my only role model.