God, how’d it come to this?

I was just messing around, how’s I end up

In a state like this?

I’m like some kind of criminal, one wrong move and my jig is up…

All of a sudden, I’m well-known,

And even _wanted,_

__

Because I can get you anything that’s known.

How, how am I haunted?

The allure’s pulled me under-

How’d I do this?

My life is noisier than thunder,

Tell me, how did I fuck up like this?

I can’t believe the fact that

I’ve made this whole thing,

And I’ve done it all without combat,

How’d I start this thing?

Big corduroy jacket full of holes,

Sunglasses are constant, as is my high,

Dealin’ like this isn’t in my goals-

Tell me, how’d I manage this, and _why?_

My old friends replaced by

Guys who can buy and sell,

I sell and I steal and I buy,

Hell, I’ve even got my own personnel!

Man, this ain’t too bad-

I’ve got my sunglasses and supply,

I love being so bad,

I love being so high.

Inside, I don’t want this.

My smarts used to plot and deal,

I don’t even want the high, the bliss-

I don’t want to cheat and steal…

Inside, I know this is hell,

Shady hang-outs and alleyways were never meant to be,

I was _gifted_, wasn’t ever meant to rebel.

I was a child, and now I’m Nancy, cant you see?

But it’s pulled me under,

My gigs are all there, I’m speeding through it all,

And I’m kind of enjoying it, my eyes wide in wonder,

Never thought the higher you climb the harder you fall…