*Slam* I closed my car’s door when I got out, I started walking towards her. She was on the front of her car, one leg close to her, the other stretched out. Her arms support her as she admires the sunset, while I admire her.

“____!” I called out her name, she looks back and smiles,

“Hey ____, you wanted to see me?” Her voice is soothing, I’m entranced by her beauty. As if she was a siren, but does that mean it’s my doomsday?

“Yeah.” I say nervously, I couldn’t maintain eye contact so I looked to the ground. When I looked back she had her lips slightly opened, and her head slightly tilt; gesturing that she was confused.

I walk to her car and she jumps off,

“What is it?” She asks.

I took a deep breath and got the words that has been stuck in my stomach, it finally puked itself out, out the obstacle in my throat; the three words. She was speechless,

“I know it’s difficult for you to answer on the spot, that’s why I ask for a letter…” I said hesitantly, “A letter?” She chuckles, in a comforting way.

“That way; you can write everything you feel, or…anything you don’t feel.” I explained.

“Well alright, why not?” She agreed, I lit up with excitement, but behind that was fear.

“Is there a due date?” She grins, I laughed and answered,

“No, I would wait forever if I had to.” She’s shocked and speechless for a split moment, but smiles the next.

“You speak of forever as if you know it like a friend.” We laugh at her remark, but I guess we’re both laughing at me.

“Right now all I feel is forever,” I smiled,

“But I would prefer it if you gave it to me by the end of this week…” I continued in a joke-like tone, she laughed.

*The letter*

“I love you”

The words you told me too soon.

Well I love you too, but not the same as you do.

There’s many different kinds of love;

The one for views:

Like a sunset

The night sky

Or someone who means something to you.

You can fall in love with an idea:

A Fantasy

A Dream

Or someone you create in your head.

There’s the sad love:

Snow, beautiful but cold

Someone that you dread

An obsession, you cannot hold.

Of course there are more,

But I can only fit so much on this paper

You must be wondering;

What love do I feel for you?

It’s the kind of love where I want to love

If that makes sense.

I do love you, I love looking at you; as if you are a view.

I love the idea of us, the one I create in my head.

But I hate that you’re only an obsession;

Someone I can’t hold.

I can’t love you, not the same way you do

But I want to.

Unfortunately I lack the ability to feel romantic love

It’s a curse,

Yet a shield too,

Or could it be a jail?

Preventing me to say “I love you”

Because my heart is scared

But then again, they say you have to take risks if you want something.

But I don’t love you enough to risk it

And I want you;

Just not enough.

*The reply*

You say you don’t love me enough to risk it

So what have you got to lose?

I know I sound pushy

And I’m sorry for that

But I just want you to know

That you will always be enough

Standing by you

Loving you, like you’re a warm sunset

Thinking of you, you’re my dream that hasn’t come true

Wanting you, but I cannot hold you;

Not the way I want to.

All of this, I am okay with;

As Long I’m with you, I will remind you that

I love you.

*Her reply*

I can’t risk it

I don’t have anything to lose now

But what if when I fall

And you break down all my walls

I will be hurt

Crashing into the ground because of love?

The idea of being vulnerable

The risk is too high

The responsibility is too much

I can’t imagine myself doing such.

*In person reply*

Why do you think it’s called

“Fall in love”

When you fall I promise you won’t be hurt

I will catch you and hold you close

You can become someone I can hold.

“No”