My memory of you is slowly washing away

I can’t express to you how much this pains me

How much it hurts when the waves of the present comes to carry away the memories of the past

But that’s the reality of it

The more minutes that go by

The days that slip away

I’m slowly living my life without you

And as life goes on

The more memories I create

The more life I live

It’s washing away your presence

And every time I realize this

It stops me in my tracks

All of a sudden a crash of grief floods over me

Suddenly

I

Can’t

Breathe

How can I be living my life without you?

Is this

Okay?

I don’t want to be happy if it means I feel far away from you

I don’t want to create more memories if it means you won’t be apart of them

But somehow I keep going

These waves of grief crashing over me every other day

Drowning me

But If feeling sadness means I feel closer to you

If being pulled by the current of grief means that I won’t forget you

Then I wouldn’t have it any other way